Hey Underground Zine!
I’m on a plane right now, hair is still damp, no real sense of direction.
Angelhood was influenced by my friends my loved ones and my enemies who do their best to manipulate the ether. Looking for control, looking for peace, looking for adventure and glory.
What I concluded in writing this project was that heavy guitar music is hard af to make and when I’m standing in the kitchen looking at the shitty backsplash and dreaming of a kitchen with a really nice backsplash I don’t really feel any less angry.
The opening line to the track ‘Angelhood’
is “I had a friend who changed his name and joined the French legion, found out from his sister she said sorry but Ben is leaving”
All I know now at this point is I miss Ben. I don’t actually know where he is. I can’t get a hold of him.
I don’t want control the way Ben wanted control.
I don’t want glory the way Ben wanted glory.
I do want my friend back. Standing around looking at really nice backsplash feels the same as looking at shitty backsplash when you don’t know where the people you love are.
I lost a lot more friends and loved ones in these last two years then I’d care to admit.
Some I feel guilty about and some I feel angry about.
The hardest parts of waking up each day is absolving yourself and forgiving yourself.
My hope with Angelhood is to find the exit strategy from that triangle.
Check out grandma's video for soft glow below!
